What could have been

Today is November 10th which is my moms birthday. She would have been 57 today. When I was a little girl I was so happy to give her my leftover Halloween candy for her birthday. She was happy to take it I never thought anything of it until now. She probably hated it but she never showed it. I wish that I could still celebrate her birthday I loved making her a german chocolate cake. I loved to decorate each year I tried to make her birthday as good as I could each year. She always made ours good and tried very hard to make us feel special. I am so upset that my boys do not know who she is. They only listen to my stories that I tell to them all the time. My mom was not perfect but she was my mom. And I love her and miss her still each and every day. I try to make the best of each day. Because you never know when you will not have another one to share with your family and friends.

Past Present And Future

Well it has been a long time!! A lot has happened I am not up to writing tonight. I just thought it would be nice to show you some pics of what we have been up to for the past 6 months or so.

Happy Birthday Max!

Okay so I feel really bad I forgot to post something on Max's second birthday! Better late then never right? I really don't know what we would do without our Max. He is sweet yet very loud! He is funny and is always smiling. He isn't a crazy kid like Gray. But lately has hit the twos for sure. We had many chances to celebrate his birthday and he loved every minute of it!! We love you Max!

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Will I ever blog again? Good question I am really thinking about it! Maybe maybe not.

Yep He Is A SuperStar!!!!!

Good news to share. Mike is now employed!!!! He will be working for the company who offered him a job 3 weeks after he had started his last job. It was not easy getting this to happen. After leaving a lot of messages with the recruiter sending many emails with no response. Last Tuesday he finally talked with someone and they told him that it was against policy to hire someone who rejected a offer. Mike decided to call the C.O.O. of the company. He explained the situation and then followed it with a email. Well yesterday late afternoon he was offered the job!! I tell you what I would never have the guts to do that! Props to him for fighting for what he wanted! This may not always work but, it does not hurt to try right?? So needless to say we a thrilled and very happy for him to get started which is on Monday. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers there were much needed.

Cut Us A Break

I am not one for people feeling sorry for me in fact I try my hardest not to let that happen! I now have had enough Mike lost his job last February. After he had applied for over 50 jobs he was given 2 offers. He started in April and really enjoyed it. We were struggling because he was getting paid a lot less but we were happy that he had a job. today he lost that job do to some changes in the company. His boss quite and the CEO And CFO wanted less sales people. Given the fact he and a few others were hired most recent he was let go. I have no words for this. I have handled a lot in my life this is something I am not handling well. I need strength and I need not to ask why me but WHY NOT ME!!! It is really hard to do and I wish I knew why. Mikes confidence is shattered and I really hope we can pull through with faith. I know worse things can happen trust me I have been through them. I needed to get that off my chest. All I ask is for prayers that would be great thanks.

Passing Judgement

I think it is very easy to judge others. We should not judge others it is very important to realize you do not know the situation in others lives. I really find it wrong when people think they can tell you how to parent and compare your family with others. Each family is different each child is different. Each relationship is different. I am one of those people who is really worried of what other people think. I am working very hard not to be this way anymore. I know as a mother I do what I can do and I love my children with everything I have. I love my husband even more. I chose him and I know we will always be ok no matter what. So heres to not worrying what others think. I am happy and very happy with my kids. Each day I learn as a person and a mother and wife and I am thankful for that. Just needed to get that out.

Happy Birthday Conner!

SO I am a day late again. I just wanted to have a chance to write about my sweet Conner who is now 6! I can't believe it. Time sure flies, I love Conner so much. He has grown so much in the last year. His ability to learn has grown leaps and bounds. His speech has improved amazingly. I have spent many days and nights worrying about Conner. Now not so much he has adjusted very well and I am very happy about that. He is a very loving kid. He loves his little brothers and takes very good care of them. He thinks of others all the time. He is very laid back I love that about him. He has a very sensitive heart. We love Conner so much and are so happy to have him as a son. Happy Birthday Conner!!